My Space! :D: Really missing him...
Today me and my mom went to drop off my grandma at the airport. As we were headed in a saw a girlfriend running up and hugging her boyfriend after he got off the plain. Then they walked out hand in hand… It really made me miss him.. I almost, I supposed you could say I envied her, even if it was…
My Space! :D: Those Two Words...
I just want to tell him those two words. But I can’t. I know if i do he will. I can’t do that to him. The Army was a part of his life before i was. I know he says ” But you’re a part of my life now. Your opinion matters. You matter to me.” But I just can’t. Nomatter how much I want to I can’t. No…
no…
It starts…
Friday started the longest year of my life. James left for Texas with 90 other soldiers last night and he won’t be back for nearly a year. I handled it better than I thought I would while we were saying goodbye, but as soon as he left my arms I broke down and almost collapsed to the ground. I couldn’t hold back tears any longer. I just longed for one more kiss and one more hug.
This next year I have already scheduled myself to keep busy. I have an internship in Chicago for the summer starting Thursday, I will be moving into a new house with my college friends right after the internship ends and during the school year I will be keeping busy with 1 executive board, hopefully a supervisor position for a event withTheSchool, possibly a part time job, other clubs, and 17 credits one semester and 16 the next. I hope this works.
I miss him every moment of every day. We were talking last night before he got on his plane and i asked him what he was thinking about. He told me that he was thinking about just being home with me, being domestic, just cuddling and watching tv. My heart melted and it made me want him home so much more. I am getting better at calming his nerves though. I’m just happy that I can support him like he needs.
